well today we have such a fantastic weather even my boyfriend stopped chatting with me because of this. well no matter i write a entry indeed... its been so many days or even weeks since i saw my darling i dont know how long i should keep this going like that... i mean i will not break up no!!! never in my wildest dreams not, but i miss him like others need the air to breath. and this feels like someone eats up your whole inner body. i do not only feel attractet to him.i want to never leave him alone its like i´m depending on him. no jan, no mia just like this for sb. to imagine. its HORRIBLE. beeing alone when on another weekend you fell asleep with your love and when u woke up(3 times...) . i spend a very very awesome day with the most gorgious person ive ever seen/known/been with, its the truth when i say his parents should receive a thank-you-letter of mine. even if it seems as if he wouldn't like to hear this. i don't care i'll say this never the less. because he is a very special person and i'm so glad he fell in love with me. i mean i'm(still) 15, small, not very pretty, and he is... let me call it a womens dream of a man. right now he is my dream. and i'll let no one disturb my dream. not before i am dead. but i still dont unterstand how he picked me when he has lots of beautiful women in front of him walking everyday. he took the boardingschoolteenie maria....men are hard to understand. but i cannot really imagine a life without him... he belongs to me like i belong to him... and the best about our distance is that we use our time together very very good. like on weekends or something my mother still doesnt know about.what she also will never but whatever. ill leave for my room now i have to do very important things like chillin' and so on u know.... for comments or any criticism there should be a link called kommentieren. otherwise write me a mail to firstname.lastname@example.org ok bye ladys cul8er!
well, today is a pretty shitty day not to say a fucked up day i should have stayed in the bed this morning. problem is my educators don´t allow me to. nevertheless i was in school, fucking day as i said. and after school i went to get a present for a friend of mine. i have quite a lot of trouble with my belly. just the normal "visit" a girl has within each month u know. and then i had the idea to have a little conversion with my baby. as i opened my icq i was really happy to see his name on the list of the online ones. my mood was suddenly very good. until he startet to tell me between the lines he has no time for me. my mood went worser than before and so she is still now. or worser than worse(i dont know if there is something higher than worse???) nevertheless im still a little pissed by the shit happening around the whole day. so whatever im leaving now. eating something.
good bye u all and darling: have fun with ur animes ! Kiss!
as everyone who read the last blogs should know im heavily in love... last night my boyfriend called me again and it was so lovely to talk to him. simply to hear his voice makes me feel like having eaten thousands of ballons. and then adding WHAT he says... oh jop this is a challenge....quarter past eleven we got it after almost one and a half our of talking.... he was tired, and i had to learn for an arabic test(which we did in the end not write... ) the night i had was quite.... well i felt good and i had VERY nice dreams.... no for real... we talked about stuff... that makes sb feel good... at least it does with me. what i still want to write about is that i feel very lonely, when thinking about our lovely wednesday... and at friday we might repeat this all and go a little further. even if i have not the experience and im extremely shy( refering to that thing with touching). but ill try my very best... i cant do any promises. but what i can a 100 percent assure to you: i´ll not leave you alone in any minute! at least ill try...=) no for real i really love you! and i cant wait seeing you again and feeling your body next to me /feel your lips touching mine.... Emotic(kiss2)} im absolutely yours!
you know... everything turns pink when u are in love... well my whole world has turned pink...even all the shadows went away and turned into the brightest light I have ever had in my entired life...we met when I already had a boyfriend.... but right now I have to say as luck would have it we separated, so i was free to fall in love with the most wonderful person on the earth. just to imagine.. when u look at me i can only see you bright blue eyes what makes me smile. when you take my hand i feel like someone took me up to heaven. and as we are at that point, i never want to make heaven cry i'll do everything to keep you by my side. i don't know how you got me that far, but i love it. and i love you! more than i have ever loved someone else...at first i thought.. who the hell is that... but with the time i embosomed you more and more. And it also could be that you are the one for life... but right now, at that time of our relationship, i can't say that with absolute assurance. i only know i do love you till hell is frozen and i will do even further. i dont know if you think so as well, but everyday i await the next time we meet. i'm sometimes even sick of love... for example at friday evening after school. i was lying in my bed doing nothing. just starring at my ceiling and thinking about you and our wonderful thursday. and i felt bad because you weren't with me. Is that something normal?? i think no. You can call it destiny or what ever. But i have the assumption it was you i was looking for. and i strongly hope i am true. My life is right now so wonderful. And it is ought to stay that way. Not for ever but at least for a quite long while!
Baby i love you!
you little sweetie
so.. to answer your little "essay" on my letter, yesterday evening was the best evening in my whole life! you are a wonderful person and I really loved beeing with you! I dont know why but since the first moment I saw you... I felt attracted to you...and when you kissed me I forgot all the stuff around us... It was just u and me. You said something about heebie-jeebies: well I have to say that i had heebie-jeebies just by having you next to me. And when you stood behind me... i lost all my senses.... you are a awesome person and i have to admit I really love you...
ich hab diese ganze woche jetzt frei. im gegensatz zu dir...=-)) na wie gehts der blöden 14jährigen mama von zwei kindern auf deiner schule? Hat sie das blöde kind echt maria theresa genannt oder hat mich das nur so durch ein mieses gerücht erreicht? denn die soll meinen namen nicht so beschmutzen...naja, ich schreib nächsten samstag das fce. da bin ich dann bei dir. diese scheißprüfung kostet alleine 120 euro. und die behalten das geld selbst wenn ich dieses ding in den sand setze. und dasdarf einfach nicght passieren. ich schreib dir dann nochmal nen eintrag in dein gäste buch. auf spanisch da haste dann was zu übersetzen...=-) vielleicht bin ich auch so gnädig und schreib dir die deutsche übersetzung drunter... nee wirste schon sehen.ach ja ich hab noch ein paar angelina jolie poster und ein paar kelly clarkson poster zuhause.mal kucken ob ich dran denke
naja des wars erstemal bis denne meine niesel alias denise
deine mia miss you
löle!vorgestern war ich beim friseur, da ich ja am sonntag dann konfirmation habe. ich habe mich völlig umgestylt, habe dann nochmal Kleid-Schmuck-Schminke-Frisur-Schuh-Test gemacht. Alles passt. Dann muss ich noch den Osterspaziergang von goethe für die schule lernen. so ein scheiß! das ist manchmal echt voll der stress. am mittwoch muss ich ihn können. momentan hab ich ihn einigermaßen drauf!
naja, muss auch wieder lernen. also ciao