well, today is a pretty shitty day not to say a fucked up day i should have stayed in the bed this morning. problem is my educators don´t allow me to. nevertheless i was in school, fucking day as i said. and after school i went to get a present for a friend of mine. i have quite a lot of trouble with my belly. just the normal "visit" a girl has within each month u know. and then i had the idea to have a little conversion with my baby. as i opened my icq i was really happy to see his name on the list of the online ones. my mood was suddenly very good. until he startet to tell me between the lines he has no time for me. my mood went worser than before and so she is still now. or worser than worse(i dont know if there is something higher than worse???) nevertheless im still a little pissed by the shit happening around the whole day. so whatever im leaving now. eating something.
good bye u all and darling: have fun with ur animes ! Kiss!
well today we have such a fantastic weather even my boyfriend stopped chatting with me because of this. well no matter i write a entry indeed... its been so many days or even weeks since i saw my darling i dont know how long i should keep this going like that... i mean i will not break up no!!! never in my wildest dreams not, but i miss him like others need the air to breath. and this feels like someone eats up your whole inner body. i do not only feel attractet to him.i want to never leave him alone its like i´m depending on him. no jan, no mia just like this for sb. to imagine. its HORRIBLE. beeing alone when on another weekend you fell asleep with your love and when u woke up(3 times...) . i spend a very very awesome day with the most gorgious person ive ever seen/known/been with, its the truth when i say his parents should receive a thank-you-letter of mine. even if it seems as if he wouldn't like to hear this. i don't care i'll say this never the less. because he is a very special person and i'm so glad he fell in love with me. i mean i'm(still) 15, small, not very pretty, and he is... let me call it a womens dream of a man. right now he is my dream. and i'll let no one disturb my dream. not before i am dead. but i still dont unterstand how he picked me when he has lots of beautiful women in front of him walking everyday. he took the boardingschoolteenie maria....men are hard to understand. but i cannot really imagine a life without him... he belongs to me like i belong to him... and the best about our distance is that we use our time together very very good. like on weekends or something my mother still doesnt know about.what she also will never but whatever. ill leave for my room now i have to do very important things like chillin' and so on u know.... for comments or any criticism there should be a link called kommentieren. otherwise write me a mail to email@example.com ok bye ladys cul8er!